Saturday, January 3, 2009

It's All About Me

Like so many others I have been taking stock of my life and thinking forward to the next year. What I want to accomplish, the changes I want to make, and what I really want to make my focus for the year. I'm wanting to take time for myself and grow as a person. I love my children and I would die for them in a heartbeat, but that doesn't mean I have to stop living. I seem to have fallen into the martyr position with my children always focusing on what's best for them even when I am unhappy. Mothering can be such a ruff place sometimes, you don't know where to draw the line. If you can give them the best then shouldn't you? At what cost? Do you jeopardize your self, your family, your sanity all for the sake of what is "best"? Well anyways, this is something that I have been thinking a lot about. So, starting at the beginning of this year I'm taking better care of myself and letting my kids suffer a bit. Haha, just kidding, there will be no suffering, but they may not like it very much.

I have signed up (as of today) for a couple of college classes one of which is Ballroom dancing with my hubby. I am VERY excited about this. It will take the place of our weekly date and by the end of it I'd like to buy a fancy dress and have M take me out dancing. I've also set some weight loss and health goals: lose 30lbs, going back to all organic (which I have let slip since cost increases) and cut out sugar (at least until I am no longer addicted again) and strengthen my core. We'll see how this all works out, it's all stuff I have done before and that I see as completely doable.

As far as crafting goals go I would like to make a few things for myself I have already started this at the end of last month, finally getting around to knitting something for myself.
Some yummy wool fingerless gloves that I finished up in just 2 days.
I have something else for me on the needles and I have my next 2 projects planned for myself as well. I have a purse halfway cut out that I hope to finish up tomorrow and you know who it's for? ME mwahhahhhaaaa!
My other New Years goals include knitting one hat every month of 2009 for The Jesus Center in Chico. They need warm things to give out every winter so this year I'm going to get a head start and hope to have 12 to donate by the end of the year.
Following in the footsteps of that goal I'm also planning to make one Christmas gift per month. So that I can give out even more hand made goodies next year. Christmas for my immediate family rocked this year, but I am hoping to gear more towards the extended as well next year.
Wishing everyone abundance and blessings in the new year!


Nicole said...

Oh, I know *exactly* what you mean! I find the giving to me vs. giving to my children one of the most difficult parts of mothering. I know that it benefits the kids when I take better care of myself, but it's so easy to get caught up in putting everyone else first.

Enjoy your ballroom dance classes, as well as your gloves and purse! I think you've inspired me to finally craft for myself.

Beth said...

whjat great ideas and goals! I love you fingerless gloves! I know what you mean, as a mom you always put yourself last. kids and hubby come first, but it is important to take time for ourselves. now to just do it! have fun with the dancing lessons too, should be exciting!

I am hosting a childrens swap if your interested :O)

AmyBeth said...

Yay Sarah! Good for you! :) You forgot one thing, though...a mommie's night out every month or so (or in, but just the mommies)! ;)